This is all I have to give…#Momlife

I am participating in an OBS via Proverbs 31 and this go around we are reading Lysa Terkeurst’s book “Am I messing Up My Kids”. Unfortunately my book arrives today (ordered a month ago…via Barnes & Noble; had a gift card) -So I have not read this weeks selections…However, at first when I heard; “This is all I have to give”, I thought of someone being spent(or tired,exhausted)..and finally just saying to the Lord, {and I have done this} Lord this is it, this is all I have – use me to do your glory.  Or maybe when my kids need something,  this is what you can get – cause this is all the $ I have – sorry guys.

However when I think of all our Lord has done for us, and realize He gave All He Had to Give…it certainly changes my perspective on this statement. He gave willingly, ALL of Himself.

I find myself these days wondering do I give all – in our society – do we even know how to give all?  What does it look like to give all – ? Christ died on an Old Rugged Cross for me, for sins I have not even committed yet.

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Recently my children and I spent the day together…and I was hoping for an awesome day!!  I started out all wrong. I rolled out of bed later than I wanted, so I did not take the time to do my bible study (1st wrong move), my kids and I love to go to yard sales on Saturdays – so we went – we found nothing of interest, but rode over all creation – then we had not planned anything to do – so my daughter suggested going to the beach to go Thrift Store shopping, another fun thing to do…However, I went with the wrong attitude…I do not enjoy being stuck in traffic – and even though the beach is only 30 minutes from our home – once we got there…it took us 1 hour and 1/2 to go 15 miles…ugh, and we only got to go to one thrift store. I was snippy – and my wonderful daughter whom I have taught well — Said Mom, we are together, if you had a positive attitude this would not be so horrible – we can have fun.  *kids*  So I searched deep to try to muster the “fun” – but I was just spent…tired.  At the end of the day – I had squandered what could have been a fun time  with my teenagers…I did not give all – I was so downtrodden for the way I behaved – it took me a few days to get myself out of the gutter.  My friends, I am usually the one who says, lets turn this trial into fun times…but not this day.

**I must start my day with the Lord! I know this…when I don’t Satan plays havoc in my life! 

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James 1:2 “Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know the testing of your faith develops perseverance. Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete.” (niv)

Blessings All,

Teresa

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…Being a Mom is tough…

Psalm 73:26 “My flesh and my heart may fail, but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever.”

jordi 8th grade gradThese are my wonderful children- Jordan & Erin – They are truly my heart. I love them with all I am.  Erin, my daughter, is starting college in less than 6 weeks…and Jordan, the super tall dude in the bright orange shirt (his choice by the way) starts 9th grade just 3 days before Erin starts college.  Many changes are coming my way. Erin will be living on campus, so not home with us. And Jordan is going to have to step up and help more around the house. That will be a challenge.

Over this past year, I have fretted;  thinking have I given my daughter everything she needs to go out on her own – to live a life where she is not afraid, not wanting, a life where she will thrive?

As a single mom, I have tried with all my might to give my children all that they need, and some of what they want, but the budget is tight.  My daughter has helped me in the grocery store for the past few years, so she knows how to shop on a budget; how to make a dollar last. And she has been washing the clothes for the past 3 years, So I know she will be okay; just a mom thing.

 

And with Jordan I feel like I have messed up with him most, he is just like me and sometimes we clash – However he has a heart of gold and would do anything for anyone.  Anything but eat what his mother prepares….unless it is Chicken, Hot dogs or pork loin, no veggies, and not starches. Many years I have tried to get him to try things…to no avail. UGH!! (sigh) My mom says he is not starving, he will be fine – look at you, you were just like him – now you love to eat. {I add a new food every year to try…but that is another story.}  Aw the wisdom of a mother!

I may not always  give them the things they want, or desire; but God has provided all that we need. And I am so thankful for His presence in my life.

There have been times when we have struggled – But praise the Lord He is always there….in John 16:33 Jesus told his disciples, “…In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world.”  What a wonderful hope!

I believe God uses all the things that we may deem as missteps – as opportunities to learn and grow. What do you think?

#imperfectmom

God Bless You,

Teresa

 

 

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So…Blogging…

 

Blogging…I have been trying my hand at this for a while, I start and then I stop. 

{silence}

I joined Proverbs 31 Online Bible Studies (P31 OBS) about 3 years ago…The studies have been so what I needed…the one we just finished – Limitless life, You Are More Than Your Past When God Holds Your Future by Derwin L Gray – Spoke to me about 6 months ago. Lysa Terkerst and her team at P31 put a list of studies that were going to be accomplished in the next six months.  I loved them all – However the last two spoke to me – and the Lord kept prompting me to sign up, I kept saying Lord I don’t have the funds to buy these two books – He said sign up, I will provide the books. So I obeyed. I would sign up for each study at the appropriate time. { God has done this before in my life – where it is very clear what He wants to do in my life – I have learned I have got to listen, or I miss what He has for me to do.}  So a few of the studies go by, and then I am about 2 months from the start of Living So that …by Wendy Blight – and something incredible happens – One of our vendors, where I work, has been pleased with our performance!  So to show their gratitude – they send my boss gift cards, she in turn, hands them over to the two of us that deal directly with this vendor — and we get to pick which one we want…Amazon is my pick – and I quickly buy my books for those two studies that the Lord has placed on my heart! Isn’t He amazing!!!

Do you not know?

Have you not heard?

The Lord is the everlasting God;

The Creator of the ends of the earth,

He will not grow tired or weary, and His understanding no on can fathom.  “

Isaiah 41:28

I am so blessed that He knows all things, that He knows exactly what I need – even before I know. These two studies have shown me how to deepen my faith in the Lord, by delving into His Word.

So…Blogging…has been a gift to me to express what I am learning and to imprint what the Lord is teaching me through these studies- but most importantly to share these tidbits with You!  God is Amazing, and He has an incredible journey for each of us to travel.  We just need to except the challenge.

Colossians 3:23 “Whatever you do, work heartily, as for the Lord and not for men.”

For me writing is a gift the Lord has given to spread the God news, What’s your gift!?

Blessings,

Keep on keeping on…

Teresa

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My Life Vision Statement

All week I have been thinking what should my Life Vision Statement look like? I answered the questions, and started to put some thoughts down on paper. I put a lot of words on paper. I love words! I wanted my life vision statement to be eloquent, and exciting…and fresh! Every time I wrote something, I just felt it was too much. So I let it sit on my desk all week…Wednesday I looked at it again…ugh. Nope….Nothing. Darn I was going to miss adding my Blog to the Blog HOP because I can not write this down. I am a writer, this should not be that hard. But sometimes you have to let an idea “marinate” for a while, for it to take shape.
Okay, so I sat down this morning and I read a little more in my book.
{I love this Bible Study, if you all are like me at the end you slow down so you can keep going even after the study is over, so that you have space to fill before the next study begins…silly hunh. (lol) Limitless Life, by Derwin Gray has by fair been the most inspirational of our studies for me thus far…I believe God needed me to be involved in this study – to help me fashion this life vision statement..} Oh right…So I sat down just a bit ago to figure this out – started to answer the questions again…the answers were all the same. I wrote a paragraph. And the Last sentence was it; my statement…not all the words before it…the last sentence is how I want to live my life….
“To be a reflection of God’s love to others in all that I say and do!”
Simple – but so powerful to me…
Blessings All – See you next on the next P31 Bible Study Blog Hop. Love you all – Keeping writing for Him!
Teresa

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Kingdom Ambassador

As I was reading through some of the Blogs from P31 Blog Hop, {which I love by the way!!} from this study, Limitless Life, by Pastor Derwin Gray ;  I was struck by an occurrence in my life this week.  Let me tell you how it came to be…

Tuesday, I was having a tough day – not a bad day, in fact, nothing special happened during the day – I smiled and went about my day like I usually do, helping my clients, and sharing antics with my coworkers….but I was especially tired. We are preparing for my daughters high school graduation party – and I was exhausted – just thinking of all that needed to be done.  However Tuesday evening was my writing “class” – which I love – 4 ladies, in my community, who love to write for the Lord  – meet the 3rd Tuesday of every month, and I always look forward to this time – but I was tired!  I prayed before class…Lord give me strength, wisdom, and a little pep.

 Matthew 11:28-30

New International Version (NIV)

28 “Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. 29 Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. 30 For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.”

After work, I gathered my writing supplies, and headed to my “class” – and we had a new person come along – I was little out of sorts, but I was in charge of the devotion…I inadvertently- left the one I wanted to do home, so I read one of my blog posts from a few weeks ago….  And then I prayed.  As we spoke about what writing we have been doing, and what we are looking forward to doing, I got a little boggled with what I was saying, and laughed it off…Then it was my turn again…FREE WRITES, or creative interludes as our fearless leader calls them. I got to pick what we were going to spend 10 minutes writing about….I chose to bring a little clay figure my daughter had crafted in the 5th grade…oh the fun we had with that…our new attendee…spoke up and said Teresa you just enjoy life don’t you….

The comment has stuck with me through the week – This study, and several other  venues…Music, and conversations with other believers. Have taught me to put aside the mundane things of life, and to let my light shine for Jesus! Why? Because as Castings Crowns says in their song Made to Thrive – we were made for so much more than to just survive. We Were Made to Thrive – I am so glad that I was able to show God’s Love this week – even though I was so tired – I could still be His Light – a Kingdom Ambassador to someone who may not know His Love like I do…Are you a Kingdom Ambassador.

 

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The Jig is Up

I am reading Chapter 6 of Limitless Life by Derwin
Gray ,as part of the Proverbs 31 OBS.  This Chapter is “From Religious to Grace-Covered”.

 http://proverbs31.org/online-bible-studies/current-study/

“…The gospel of grace informs us that Jesus went to the cross fully knowing our issues and imperfections. And on the cross He died for all our sins-the past ones, the present ones, and the future ones”,  stated byPastor Derwin Gray.  Yep!!God knows all my issues and He Loves Me! It has taken me a while to let this sink into my heart, and be realized! Guess you can say -i like to “marinate” on things…to let them seep into my spirit, and then when my heart gets it – I Got It!  When God see’s me – he see’s what Jesus did – he does not see my screw ups, or my missed opportunities – He sees His Son Jesus – who died for me – to cover a multitude of sins, and imperfections! He sees the man who walked on water, who fed the 5, ooo with a fish and loaf of bread, who healed the sick, who went to the cross – What have I done?

Really!  What have I done for Him?! Going a little further in the chapter, {bear with me through a short exert – there is a point…}

Pastor Gray talks about being a coffee drinker, and a trip he made to the Dominican Republic – where he enjoyed a wonderfully bold and aromatic cup of coffee -and not 10 minutes after drinking it, he felt a surge of energy – like he could run and run and run, which he did – after thinking on this he wondered “Before the cup of Dominican coffee – I was sleepwalking”.  Are we sleepwalking through life? Going through the motions…just existing.

I feel like that…like I have just been surviving. Do you feel like that sometimes too?

I don’t want to live that – I want to be a door that God can walk through. I want to be a light where people can see Jesus!  How do we do that…First we have to PRAY! Fix our eyes on Him! Get into the Word of God, and marinate on for a while…let God’s Words seep into our very souls – so that it oozes out every orifice we have!  I know that it is not easy – as Satan will be at every turn…But We Are God’s Children – And He Will Protect, and Guide Us!  I believe that with all my heart.  John16:33 “…In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world.”

How will you start?

Me…each day is a new day – I will chose to follow Him! I will get up each morning talking to Him, reading His Word, studying, and marinating on what He wants me to realize!  I will go to work with a good attitude and trust Him to lead me through it. Will there be bumps and bruises – absolutely.Will I fail at times, Yep!  But -BUT, How will the world know about Jesus, if we don’t fail – I think of David – He was a Great Man of God – but he screwed up! However, he fessed up, and he gave up his rights to Jesus…to live through him.  What about Gideon, he was lowly worker, but he allowed God to use him – and the city was overthrown.  God loves us, and He will never leave us or forsake us.

Let us all remember this…Love you all!!

Teresa

 

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Marinate on This!

MARINATE ON THAT!

This is quickly becoming my favorite part of Pastor Derwin Gray’s book, Limitless Life. This little tidbit {box} encourages us to really “marinate” (you know like a steak sits in it’s marinade and soaks up the flavors) on what God has for us to learn. 

 I am studying this through P31 OBS for the next few weeks. I am in the midst of of Chapter 4 From Orphan to Adopted – where Pastor Gray has just enlightened us about his father not being around much – and how this has made him feel like an orphan.  In the little “Marinate on that!” box – he writes about his own seventeen year old daughter, and how she is teaching him a little about life.  When he feels sorry for himself she says, “Dad, a whambulance is not coming to get you,”  what she is really telling him is to stop feeling sorry for himself.  He goes on to say ” When we wallow in self-pity, the pain or event that caused the pain only gets worse. It magnifies.”  He is so right, when we dwell on the bad – we can become consumed by the bad thoughts, and then we have no room for our Father.  When He loves us so much!!

IJohn 3:1 ” How great is the love the Father has lavished on us that we should be called children of God! And that is what we are!”  Or as Matthew West says…in his song, Hello…My Name is…” A Child of the One True King!

 

Love you guys…Be Blessed- Share His Light.  -Teresa

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